It's a known fact that no one really warns us about all of the twists, turns, ups and downs that we'll experience during this thing called life. In fact, even if we were warned, most of us wouldn't listen or believe it. I remember being in high school and thinking "damn, life is so hard." "I hate school and my teachers." "My mom complains too much." Oh, and my all time favorite, "it's not that serious." If only I knew then what I know now. Life was a piece of cake back then. Now a days though...life is kicking my ass, for the lack of better words.
When I started this blog last year, it was to influence moms everywhere that it is possible to be a mom and still achieve other things in life that were just for them. I wanted them to know that it is possible to do what you need to do and still find time to do what you want to do. And for a while, I was on a roll. I was posting. I was motivating. I was feeling good and feeling like I had finally found my purpose. And then life happened, as it always does.
My last post was October 1st, 2023. The day my aunt passed away and lost her battle to breast cancer. From that day forward my life has been a whirlwind of few ups and many, many downs. From being on the brink of a divorce, to going through a year and half of college prep for my eldest all on my own, to feeling like I lost my purpose and passions. Long story short...I BEEN GOING THROUGH IT!
But it wasn't until just recently that I realized, aren't we all? I mean, is that not what being a mother is? And when things are bad, unfortunately, we don't have the option of just throwing in the towel. So here I am nightly, in the shower with steaming hot water running down my back and tears running down my face. My only safe space, besides my weekly therapy sessions of course. I may stay in this place for a little while. I earned this time. But when I am ready, I will grab that towel that I didn't throw in, wipe my tears and face the next set of challenges head on because that's what real mamas do! So here's to a new chapter in my story.
Tell somebody I'm back.
xoxo
The Ambitious Mama
Rest in Eternal Peace Auntie Jo...This One's For You!
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